Teezy
sometimes it just really gets to me how toxic my hometown was
i had a guidance counselor back in high school tell me all i'd ever be good for was being a hooker
i had friends who i had nothing but good will and loyalty towards disown me as soon as i started struggling in school because my ADHD got really severe when puberty happened
multiple psychologists, guidance counselors, and teacher knew my father abused me and they didn't do anything about it
at a certain point the guidance department said i had oppositional defiance disorder and i needed to be medicated to be back in school and even though that was like four years a go i still have nightmares about that. i don't even know what they gave me because it was such a cocktail of drugs but i was physically forced to take it on multiple occaisions and even though i stopped there's just something inside me that hasn't been right since
i made some really wonderful friends but other than that goddamn what an awful environment it was to grow up in
at least i have some comfort in knowing that even though i still have to live with my dad he's afraid of me now
ugh just… god
i shouldn't be moaning so much on here, doesn't do me any good
i oughtta be looking forward to pressing on into the future
as much as so many people in my life told me i was stupid and good for nothing i know i'm brilliant at understanding animal behavior and i'll be a great cat behaviorist if i can manage to become one