eep i didn't want to freak you guys out!!! it's none of you guys' fault and if I weren't having a lot of other mandarin going on right now everything would have been fine
i get like that every so often. everything becomes too much and that leads me into thinking too much – > ruminating -> thinking everyone secretly hates me.
and it isn't mafia or the clan warfare or anything. it's me having a lot of stressful stuff going on and worrying about college year 2 and a lot of social anxiety associated with that (mainly circulating around similar themes).
give it a few days and i'll be fine again.
plz don't worry about you guys making it worse cause you aren't
i don't want you guys to worry